I have never thought that i would get hooked with the latest PBB. When i first saw the initial episode when the house mates were just coming inside the house, i was just intrigued and had already made an impression on each and every one of them. The next few episodes i had lost to follow up but there were just scenes from Melai and Jason that got me interested. I just find Melai funny, that each and every of her antics made me laugh. As for Jason, i was intrigued by him because of his shyness and his pa mysterious effect (coz he doesn't usually talk or share things with the house mates) Until Melai had to change house and there she met Jason. At this point i do sometimes got the chance to see them together, on how they hang out, just bullying and teasing each other. I guess every one had sensed that the jokes made by them about the possibility of falling in love or being together could lead to something serious. I also think that Big Brother had grown a fondness to this two, that he had to bring a doll, who they named Dengue as their daughter to bring them closer together.I also approved of Big Brother's decision of separating them for 2 weeks as this had made them realize about how they missed each other and how they feel about one another. As they had shared it to the Filipino people, i did feel that there was sincereness from both of them. And even though i heard that PBB is scripted, that people inside the house follows certain directions on how they would act and behave, the MELASON love team has stroked a fire inside the hearts of the viewers. Just the idea of them falling in love brings smiles and happiness to the Filipino viewers. I guess this is the reason why people are hooked and the reason why i am hooked to this. Haaay, how i wish that what they have is really true and hope that this will pursue even after PBB is over.

THE MEMO

It is the first day of May, and it is the day when the new batch of interns come in. I am happy seeing them in their all new blazers with the proud look on their faces, that they have overcome a year of clerkship. I was the clerk's monitor or the resident in charge with the clerks, during the last term. And i had seen their trials, their hard ships and their progress on those times. And i believe that most of them do deserve to be in this place right now, a year away and then the only thing that separates us from them, the medical board exams. Well, the reason why i am writing this is about my reaction regarding a Memo that came down from the Association of Philippine Medical Colleges. It was said there that the interns are not to undergo 24 hours duty straight anymore as this will impair their decision making and as to make them more efficient with their work. I am not in favor with this. I do understand that a person who works in the hospital and some one who handles life should be in the right mind to make decisions and a proper rest is needed. But going on a 24 hours duty is also a training of character. It makes someone stronger by handling stressful situations. It makes a doctor think and act right even in the highest pressure. This is what a doctor is made of. And this is the life he/she'll be facing in the real world. So, how could you these new batch of interns have these qualities if the program will be changed?Aside from this they will be lesser cases that they can encounter during their course. I am not for the change of the program just because i had been into it and i want them to experience the hardships themselves but because this it will make them a better doctor because of it.....

RESPOND:LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS

RESPOND:LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS

I WAS ON MY WAY HOME, COMING FROM A WAKE OF A FRIEND AND WAS HAVING THOUGHTS OF POSTING SOMETHING ABOUT WHAT I FELT ABOUT HIS SUDDEN PASSING WHEN I RECEIVED A MESSAGE FROM GARY, TELLING ME THAT HE HAD POSTED A NEW BLOG. I IMMEDIATELY REPLIED SAYING THAT I AM QUITE EXCITED TO SEE WHAT HE WROTE. I JUST READ IT AT THIS TIME AND THIS POST WOULD BE MY ANSWER TO IT. I DO APPRECIATE GARY'S HONESTY AND I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING AGAINST WHAT HE FEELS AND HIS THOUGHTS ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP. HERE ARE MY THOUGHTS....

* I MISS HIM SO MUCH AS WELL AND IT IS QUITE HARD TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE AND CARE FOR HIM WHEN HE'S THERE AND I'M HERE.YES, WE DO GET TO TALK ABOUT IT, WE DO GET TO SAY THOSE 3 BEAUTIFUL WORDS TO EACH OTHER BUT IT'S STILL MORE MEANINGFUL WHEN FEELINGS GET TO BE SHOWN INTO ACTIONS (LIKE AN EMBRACE, HOLDING OF HANDS OR BY A KISS).

* LIKE WHAT I SAID IN MY PREVIOUS POSTS, THAT I HAVE THIS INTENSE FEELING THAT HE IS MY THE ONE AND SO I HAVE THE SAME SENTIMENTS AS HE HAS THAT I COULD NOT SEE MYSELF WITHOUT HIM NOW AND EVEN MY FUTURE

* YES, WE HAVE BEEN OFFICIALLY TOGETHER FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS NOW, BUT MOSTLY SPENT APART, I HAD THE SAME QUESTION MYSELF ON HOW DO WE REALLY KNOW ABOUT EACH OTHER? DO I REALLY KNOW WHAT MAKES HIM TIC?WOULD HE BE ABLE TO HANDLE MY OCCASIONAL MOOD SWINGS..WE ARE NOT PERFECT AND WE BOTH HAVE OUR FLAWS, WE WILL BE DISCOVERING THAT ALONG THE WAY BUT THAT WILL ONLY TAKE PLACE WHEN WE GET TO SPEND A LONGER TIME TOGETHER.

*THOUGH WE HAVE TALKS ABOUT THE FUTURE TOGETHER, MOST OF IT ARE STILL VAGUE, MOST ARE STILL PENDING BECAUSE I STILL NEED TO FINISH TRAINING AND GARY NEEDS TO FIND WORK AT THE MOMENT, WELL IN SHORT WE NEED TO SETTLE THINGS ABOUT OURSELVES FIRST BEFORE WE MAKE THAT BIG LEAP AND I TRULY UNDERSTAND THAT BECAUSE IT DOES MAKE SENSE


*I STILL NEED TO MEET HIS FAMILY ESPECIALLY HIS DAD AND HIS FRIENDS. I FEEL INCOMPLETE WITHOUT MEETING THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO HIM.HE HAS TOLD ME THAT HIS DAD AND HIS FRIENDS SEEM TO APPROVE OF ME BUT I STILL WANT TO SEE THAT MYSELF.

*AS OF WHERE AND WHEN WE CAN BE TOGETHER, THOSE PLANS ARE STILL ON DISCUSSION TOO, BUT I AM HOPING THAT WHAT EVER DECISIONS WE MAKE OR WHO EVER GIVES UP A LIFE THAT IT WON'T BE REGRETABLE, THAT WE MAY FEEL THAT IT IS REALLY WORTH IT.

I TOTALLY AGREE WITH GARY THAT WHEN U GET TO FIND THE RIGHT PERSON, YOU DO WHAT EVER IT TAKES TO MAKE IT WORK. I CAN SEE FROM HIM THAT HE IS DOING EVERYTHING HE COULD TO KEEP US AND AS I TOLD HIM, I AM WILLING TO WAIT AND EVEN MAKE SACRIFICES JUST BE WITH HIM. IT COULD BE ME MOVING THERE ADJUSTING TO THE COLD WEATHER, WHO KNOWS?

TEN THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

I MADE A SIMILAR POST LIKE THIS A YEAR AND A HALF AGO (ON MY SPACE AND MY FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT)WHEN ME AND GARY WAS JUST STARTING AS A COUPLE. AS I HAVE KNOWN HIM MORE, I HAVE GROWN TO LOVE HIM MORE. THIS GUY NEVER FAILS TO AMAZE ME. THIS MADE ME FEEL STRONG ABOUT THE BELIEF THAT THIS MAN IS MY "THE ONE". I REMEMBER MY PROFILE ON FILIPINA HEART.COM (THE SITE WHICH GAVE US THE OPPORTUNITY TO MEET AND TALK), THERE WAS A PORTION IN THERE WHICH ASKED WHAT QUALITIES IN A GUY WAS I LOOKING FOR AND REVIEWING ALL THAT, HE IS EXACTLY THAT PERSON.THE LIST HERE MIGHT HAVE CHANGED AS COMPARED FROM MY PREVIOUS ONE, FOR THE REASON THAT I GOT TO KNOW THE DEEPER SIDE OF HIM.

1. HE ALWAYS HAVE A POSITIVE OUTLOOK ON THINGS, EVEN THOUGH HE SAYS THAT HE MOANS A LOT. HE SEES A GLASS HALF FULL AND NOT HALF EMPTY.I HAVE SEEN THIS CHARACTER WHEN HE WAS MADE REDUNDANT FROM HIS WORK (WELL, HE WAS SURPRISED AND UPSET BY THIS) BUT AFTER A WHILE HE MADE REALIZATIONS THAT THIS WAS AN OPPORTUNITY FOR CHANGE. I DID ADMIRE HIM FOR THAT.

2. HE MADE A WAY TO REACH OUT TO MY FAMILY. MY FAMILY IS A BIG PART OF ME, WITHOUT THEM AND THEIR UNENDING SUPPORT I WOULDN'T BE THE PERSON THAT I AM NOW AND SO AS A PART OF MY CRITERIA A GUY WHO SHOULD BE WITH ME HAS TO GET ALONG WITH MY FAMILY . GARY ON HIS 2ND VISIT HERE MADE AN EFFORT OF SPENDING TIME WITH THEM. HE THREW OUT A SWIMMING PARTY AND THIS MADE ME REALLY REALLY HAPPY. MY PARENTS LIKE HIM ESPECIALLY MY MOM WHO HAD CALLED HIM SON AND MY COUSINS WHO HAD A GOOD IMPRESSION ON HIM.

3. HE INCLUDES ME ON HIS PLANS FOR THE FUTURE AND I LOVE HEARING THAT FROM HIM.

4. HE HAS THIS WAY OF MAKING ME FEEL LOVED EVEN FROM A DISTANCE

5. HE TALKS ABOUT ME WITH HIS FRIENDS AND IT MAKES ME FEEL THAT HE IS PROUD OF ME( AND I PRETTY LIKE THAT! HAHAHA)

6. HE ALSO MADE AN EFFORT ON MEETING MY FRIENDS. I SEE HOW GOOD HE IS WITH PEOPLE, ON THE WAY HE TREATS THEM (ONE EXAMPLE IS THE STAFF OF SEA DIVE IN CORON WHERE WE STAYED DURING OUR HOLIDAY. HE SEEMED LIKE HE WAS A FAVORITE GUEST PROBABLY BECAUSE HE TREATED THEM WELL AND BECAME FRIENDS WITH THEM)

7. HE IS POINTING ME TO THE RIGHT DIRECTION WHAT EVER IT MIGHT BE, CAREER MOVES, PLANS FOR THE FUTURE AND OTHER DECISION MAKING. HE ALWAYS MAKE SENSE.

8. I KNOW AND SURE THAT I ALWAYS HAVE HIS SUPPORT. HE CHEERS ME UP ON A BAD DAY (THAT IS WHEN MY CONSULTANTS ARE GIVING ME A HARD TIME OR MY CLERKS ARE GIVING ME HEADACHES).

9. HE BELIEVES IN ME EVEN WHEN I THINK THAT I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. HE HAS FAITH IN ME AND THE THINGS I COULD DO.

10. HE JUST LOVED ME THE WAY I AM NO IFS NOT BUTS (NOW THIS IS MAKING ME TEARY!)

I WAS BROWSING THE PICTURES OF ME AND GARY FROM OUR PREVIOUS HOLIDAYS AND I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THAT WE HAVE REACHED THIS FAR IN OUR RELATIONSHIP, SPENDING OUR TIME MOSTLY AWAY FROM EACH OTHER. FRIENDS HAVE ASKED ME A COUPLE OF TIMES HOW ARE WE ABLE TO MANAGE THE SEPARATION, AND I SAID THAT IN A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP, BOTH PARTIES MUST WANT IT TO REALLY WORK, THAT BOTH MUST BE WILLING TO MAKE A WAY TO BE ALWAYS IN CONTACT, WHAT EVER MODE OF COMMUNICATION IT MIGHT BE. LUCKILY FOR US, WE DO GET TO EMAIL EACH OTHER EVERY NOW AND THEN, WONDERFUL SOCIAL NETWORKS SUCH AS FACEBOOK WHERE WE COULD EXCHANGE MESSAGES, TEXT MESSAGING WHEN WE DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO ACCESS THE INTERNET, OCCASIONAL CALLS AND THE WEEKLY SKYPE WHICH WE TRY TO RELIGIOUSLY DO.
WE TRY TO BE CREATIVE, KEEPING THE FIRE OF THE RELATIONSHIP ON GOING. GARY HAS THIS WAY OF MAKING ME FEEL VALUED, LOVED AND BEING TAKEN CARE OF EVEN FROM A DISTANCE. HE'S THE MORE CREATIVE ONE. HE WOULD SEND ME FLOWERS WITH CARDS (OF COURSE WITH MOVING MESSAGES THAT MAKE ME GO INTO TEARS) AS WELL AS CHOCOLATES AND STUFF. HE WOULD SOMETIMES SUPRISINGLY SEND ME TEXT MESSAGES ASSURING ME THAT I AM THOUGHT OF EVEN ON HIS BUSY DAY.
AS FOR MY PART, I TRY TO DO THE SAME, SHARING HIM MY THOUGHTS, MY FEELINGS AND EVENTS THAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME THROUGH OUT THE DAY. AND OF COURSE WE LOOK BACK ON THE DAYS SPENT TOGETHER WHICH MAYBE A BIT SHORT BUT EVERYDAY WAS WORTH WHILE.
I AM JUST LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE DAY WHEN WE CAN FINALLY BE TOGETHER ON A LONGER TIME.