RESPOND:LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS
I WAS ON MY WAY HOME, COMING FROM A WAKE OF A FRIEND AND WAS HAVING THOUGHTS OF POSTING SOMETHING ABOUT WHAT I FELT ABOUT HIS SUDDEN PASSING WHEN I RECEIVED A MESSAGE FROM GARY, TELLING ME THAT HE HAD POSTED A NEW BLOG. I IMMEDIATELY REPLIED SAYING THAT I AM QUITE EXCITED TO SEE WHAT HE WROTE. I JUST READ IT AT THIS TIME AND THIS POST WOULD BE MY ANSWER TO IT. I DO APPRECIATE GARY'S HONESTY AND I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING AGAINST WHAT HE FEELS AND HIS THOUGHTS ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP. HERE ARE MY THOUGHTS....* I MISS HIM SO MUCH AS WELL AND IT IS QUITE HARD TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE AND CARE FOR HIM WHEN HE'S THERE AND I'M HERE.YES, WE DO GET TO TALK ABOUT IT, WE DO GET TO SAY THOSE 3 BEAUTIFUL WORDS TO EACH OTHER BUT IT'S STILL MORE MEANINGFUL WHEN FEELINGS GET TO BE SHOWN INTO ACTIONS (LIKE AN EMBRACE, HOLDING OF HANDS OR BY A KISS).
* LIKE WHAT I SAID IN MY PREVIOUS POSTS, THAT I HAVE THIS INTENSE FEELING THAT HE IS MY THE ONE AND SO I HAVE THE SAME SENTIMENTS AS HE HAS THAT I COULD NOT SEE MYSELF WITHOUT HIM NOW AND EVEN MY FUTURE
* YES, WE HAVE BEEN OFFICIALLY TOGETHER FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS NOW, BUT MOSTLY SPENT APART, I HAD THE SAME QUESTION MYSELF ON HOW DO WE REALLY KNOW ABOUT EACH OTHER? DO I REALLY KNOW WHAT MAKES HIM TIC?WOULD HE BE ABLE TO HANDLE MY OCCASIONAL MOOD SWINGS..WE ARE NOT PERFECT AND WE BOTH HAVE OUR FLAWS, WE WILL BE DISCOVERING THAT ALONG THE WAY BUT THAT WILL ONLY TAKE PLACE WHEN WE GET TO SPEND A LONGER TIME TOGETHER.
*THOUGH WE HAVE TALKS ABOUT THE FUTURE TOGETHER, MOST OF IT ARE STILL VAGUE, MOST ARE STILL PENDING BECAUSE I STILL NEED TO FINISH TRAINING AND GARY NEEDS TO FIND WORK AT THE MOMENT, WELL IN SHORT WE NEED TO SETTLE THINGS ABOUT OURSELVES FIRST BEFORE WE MAKE THAT BIG LEAP AND I TRULY UNDERSTAND THAT BECAUSE IT DOES MAKE SENSE
*I STILL NEED TO MEET HIS FAMILY ESPECIALLY HIS DAD AND HIS FRIENDS. I FEEL INCOMPLETE WITHOUT MEETING THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO HIM.HE HAS TOLD ME THAT HIS DAD AND HIS FRIENDS SEEM TO APPROVE OF ME BUT I STILL WANT TO SEE THAT MYSELF.
*AS OF WHERE AND WHEN WE CAN BE TOGETHER, THOSE PLANS ARE STILL ON DISCUSSION TOO, BUT I AM HOPING THAT WHAT EVER DECISIONS WE MAKE OR WHO EVER GIVES UP A LIFE THAT IT WON'T BE REGRETABLE, THAT WE MAY FEEL THAT IT IS REALLY WORTH IT.
I TOTALLY AGREE WITH GARY THAT WHEN U GET TO FIND THE RIGHT PERSON, YOU DO WHAT EVER IT TAKES TO MAKE IT WORK. I CAN SEE FROM HIM THAT HE IS DOING EVERYTHING HE COULD TO KEEP US AND AS I TOLD HIM, I AM WILLING TO WAIT AND EVEN MAKE SACRIFICES JUST BE WITH HIM. IT COULD BE ME MOVING THERE ADJUSTING TO THE COLD WEATHER, WHO KNOWS?
